chelsearoffles

four messages for four people.

001;
i used to be so scared at the thought of losing you. i tried so hard to prevent that from happening. when it eventually did happen, i had no idea what to do - i felt so helpless afterwards. what you did to me took so long to get over, and i wasn’t sure if i was even going to be able to get over it. looking back on everything now, i’m glad it happened. i’m glad because it was an easy way to take a quick exit - an exit i should have taken months before. you didn’t belong in my life, and i noticed the signs of that early on but i ignored them because i loved you so much. i’ll never pretend like i didn’t love you and care about you as much as i did, but i am happy you are out of my life. i’m glad we are strangers now, because it’s clear you changed for the worse and i am better off without you. unfortunately for you, you earned some awful karma. for the longest time, i never blamed you for what happened, i never had anything bad to say about you - but that’s changed. you’re an awful person.

002;
you are such an amazing friend. no one understands me the way you do and i’m so glad you’ve been around for the past few years. you’ve helped me through so much, and i don’t know that i would have gotten through some of the things i have without you. you are so reassuring and help me stay confident with my choices. you look out for me while keeping in mind what i want. you really are my best friend, and i love you so much! i’m really upset you are moving in a month or two, but i’m so proud of you for your choices. although you get heat from other people for it and get anxiety when you have to talk about it, i think you are making wonderful choices and i don’t think you need to take the traditional route at all.

003;
your voice has been the soundtrack to my life for the past year or so, and i couldn’t be happier. you put me on an emotional roller coaster sometimes, but i have a soft spot for you so it never matters. you are so lovely, and i wish you believed in yourself as much as i believe in you. it breaks my heart to see the things you do to yourself sometimes and to hear the way you talk about particular things. you, more than anyone else, deserve to be happy and deserve to take the route you want - whatever and whenever that is. you are never going to be stuck, so please don’t worry. i admire you so much. no matter what kind of front you put on for others, i know who you are. i know the sweet, caring person you are. and i love that person. i love you. i know your flaws, and i know your strengths. at the end of the day, they don’t matter. i just love the beautiful person that you are, that i’ve seen develop in front of my eyes. i wish so dearly that you would stop doing the things you know are hurting me, though.

004;
this is short - but if i had to pick one person to be like when i am older, it would absolutely be you. you’re a beautiful spirit.